Tuesday, December 1, 2009 9:33 PM
UGH
I AM SO BORED!!! I don't want to do my homework =( I hate school, I need a break T__T, I need sleep. 17ish more days until the winter break. I WANT IT NOW! Off topic but, I dont think I'll let anyone from school read my blogs, it's kind of weird having them see all this, I don't know why XD If I want to show a person from school my blog, I'll just copy and paste it for them LOL *BOOTLEG*
ANYWAYS I WANNA WATCH NINJA ASSASSIN, ok I dont really care but...I wanna see how bad or good rain's english is LOL, and I heard it was a pretty good movie.
TODAY, we told SARAH about the Joanna thing and LOL her reaction was so funny, like she was going to kill them or something. I wish she did at the moment.
AHHHH mother is talking so much STFU. I hate it when parents think you're doing something bad when you're actully not doing ANYTHING, liek fuck offffffffffffffffffff. LIKE WHO THE HELL do you think I am to be doing "bad" things. I know better than that, im not a dumbass <.< I fucking get good marks and you think im on the computer all day and night because I WANT TO? NO I FUCKING WANT TO SLEEP, if I didnt care about my fucking work then I wouldnt fucking be up the whole fucking night. LIKE JEEZ stupid ass fob parents. I hate them both. Seriously leave me alone, if you have nothing good to say just gtfo. Whatever you have to tell me doesnt help me in any way, Im not listening to you anyways so dont waste your breathe. Making me feel bad only makes me want to try less to spite you. I'm only working hard for ME, so I can have the good future.
ANYWAYS, don't mind all the swearing, I dont usually swear but when I'm angry, I'll kill you. I hate people who think they have advantage over me because I can't stand up for myself. It's not that I don't want to, its because I dont want any tension between that person after. I ACTUALLY Care about those things. I always talk about how much I hate other people, I wish they could be...I dont know, less difficult??? On another note, I HATE HATE HATE, my student ID card T__T My face looks so huge, my eyes look tiny and my hair is so thick UGHHHH I wish one day I could finally turn into a "SWAN", but I'm still an ugly duckling. Will I always be an ugly duckling? *SIGH* I think hating your flaws is a step to learning to love yourself, as stupid as that sounds. I HAVE MANY flaws, I get upset about them all the time. If human were all created equally, than how come they arent equal in looks. Today's society is really shallow. IM SHALLOW. But everyone is shallow in the beginning. I really need to exercise, moisturize, get a haircut, shave my legs, arms, etc D: I am self concious. I get jealous of those seemingly flawless people =( Especially those talented, flawless people. I wish I could sing, dance, I dont do anything that special.
Hmmm I think I'll write about SM Auditions now. It was pretty fun, I met Jancy, Ricky and David through Anna. Ricky is in grade 9 and hes the prettiest boy everrrrrr, too bad hes younger..and GAY LOL. David is just woahhhhh jo kwon aura/vibe im recieving, but of course Jo Kwon is so much cooler. David was on the next star up to round 3, so I'm assuming he is a good singer. LOL BEST PART of the day was when me and jancy jacked a giant shinee poster and split it HAH! I got minho, key and taemin and she got onew and jonghyun xD I WISH i got the whole thing though XD People were staring, it was sooo funny. ONE GUY called me evil LOLLL it was so awesome. Anyways,after we went for sushi, it was good...too lazy to get into detail, it was a pretty fun fun fun day LOL
OKAY now I'm gonna talk about today...
Christian sang me a song LOL what a cutie! I felt bad because he thought I laughed at him =( and he signed up for the talent show, and now he thinks hes bad AHHHHG.
and and and Nick W. scared me LOL! He waved to me and I waved back and start fixing my hair as he walks by...but i turn to the side and hes RIGHT THERE i was like AHHHH LOL, so scary! and he started laughing like crazy xD HMMM and in religion class..the weird portuguese Brandon said something to me and I pouted at him LOL and he was like "omggg you have the cutest face" LOLLL, that made me laugh like crazy, dont know why. MY FACE IS FAT MAN! <.<
WELL I dont think I can say this enough, I CANT WAIT UNTIL I FINALLY get to work and get paid and get to buy useless shit =( I WANT A DEBIT CARD LOL...=.=
In the next blog I will type out a wishlist =)
OK IM DONE, BYE.